My Hearts Cry

In the middle of a storm

My life feels like it’s been hit by a hurricane

Searching for safety longing for protection

All alone its seems everyone I thought I could count

On has walked away

I just need to know that you’re hear

Please heal my wounds

Ease the pain

Crying in the midnight hour down

On my knees

Asking you to save me

Bring me out

I’m so tired of living like this God

But  in spite all the mess that I’m in

I’m still going to lift up my hands

And praise you

Trusting in you but it’s not easy

Through the tears and the pain through the heartache and rain

You seem so far away because of all the pain my life

But I know you will never leave me

You have never failed me

I was too busy trying to do things my way

Please forgive me

Teach me how to truly walk by faith and not by sight

I can’t do this by myself I surrender to you

Wondering how I will make it though this time?

But I’ll trust you

my past still controls me will this hurt ever leave?

I can only trust you no one else like you do

the devil is trying to convince me that there’s no way that I can make it out

& I’m not going to be able to get out of this situation

But my God is able

You know my pain

And I know you wouldn’t put more on me then I can bear

I’ve had my heart broken, did some things I’m ashamed of, keep making the same mistakes

But God you still kept me

I know you love me that’s why I trust you

As long as I got you Jesus I can make it

I’ll trust you!

this is my Hearts cry on today

-Ms.Donveyea

In the Middle of a Storm

What do I when my hearts not in it?

What do I do when I hit rock bottom & I can’t find the strength to get back up again?

How do I deal with separating how I feel from what’s real?

How do I let go of something I wanted so badly without feeling like a failure?

What do I say to myself to stay strong & keep my head up when I just want to break down?

What do I have to do to stop making the same mistake over and over again?

How do I prove myself when I’m surrounded by negativity?

How do I have confidence when doubt is all in my face?

What do I when insecurity is bringing me down?

What do I do when fear is holding me back?

How do I find the self motivation when I don’t believe?

How do trust that everything will be okay when things get rough & I can’t see a way out of my struggle?

Guess the only answer to all of these questions is to put my trust in God and continue to pray through the good times but even hard during the bad times…

What can you do when you can’t do nothing? Trust in the Lord….

Ms. Donveyea

Love never felt so good a gift from GOD

Like the kiss of the sun how it feels so lovely on my brown skin 

Like the soft sand of the Caribbean’s my feet love the way it feels 

Like the shinning stars in the midnight sky how beautiful they are 

You take your time there is no rush with you 

Letting me grow into myself you guide me through the valley of death 

Showing me love in every way everyday it’s something new with you 

A never ending adventure you fill me with excitement 

But when I get lost your always there to save me from myself 

It’s so amazing how your love can conquer all 

And sometimes it’s still hard to believe that you chose me 

When everybody turned their backs on me you were right there by my side 

In the middle of the night you heard my cry for help 

You comforted me and held me in your warm loving arms 

Whatever I’m going through I know that I can always depend on you 

I’m so glad you’re not like the others you are the definition of a true friend 

& sometimes the race gets too rough and I can’t see me making it to the finish line but then I 

Call out your name and you give me the strength I need to carry on 

I trust you with everything you’ve been here since the beginning 

You know me inside and out so I ask that you keep me strong so that I may fight the good 

Fight. 

Delivery me lord form all this heart ache and pain the confusion in my mind help to be what 

You desire for me to be teach me how to live life without bondage!

When a Woman’s Fed Up

Why couldn’t you have just been a man about it smh instead leading of me on to believe shit that wasn’t real?

You lied the whole time damn you deserve an Oscar

I ought to bust the windows out ya car maybe slash ya tires too

So you can feel my pain

You just played with my feelings caused me to have mixed emotions

I was real with you from the start but you just couldn’t do the same

Excuses that was all you ever gave me

Nothing but a headache but I still I wanted to give you a chance

 Damn… what was I thinking?

All this time you were talking about how woman can’t be trusted because they are sneaky & how hurt you were from past relationship

BULLSHIT! Stop tryna give me that victim shit

If you really cared for me you, you wouldn’t have done this to me

But you’re a liar so I can’t really expect much from you anyway

You could never say I didn’t try and I didn’t let you know how I felt

You were just too blind to see

Maybe I was blind too but now I see the piece of shit you really are

Making promises you know your ass would never keep smh

Then you want to apologize when honestly you don’t even mean it

Because if you did you wouldn’t have done the same shit over and over

But I’ve been done listening to you

I know the truth now no thanks to you

So save your apology this time

Just close the door when you exit my life

& don’t come back

You’ll get what you deserve

& I’ll always be the BEST thing you never had.

-Ms. Donveyea 

Marvin’s Room

Laying bed sports bra and my boyshorts on

Just got a text message saying how much you miss me…

But I’m not the same girl I once was

Guess your finally realizing that with me you had better

However it’s too late to apologize

You’ve made your bed now lay in it!

Here you go again pouring your heart out but boo hoo

It sucks for you and no I’m not sorry but you are smh

You keep saying you need me but I’m not taking you back

& you already know the reasons

It’s obvious that you still think about the times we had but

Those memories have vanished from my memory box

You keep searching for something that is no longer there

please stop it with the antics!

Now my phone is ringing I pick up and I all you

Saying is f***that n****that I

Like sooo damn bad

Stop hating because I may have found somebody worthy

You know jealousy is fetal hope you survive

I’m just saying with me you had better you

But you failed to realize that

Now you’re asking me to come over

What part of I’m over you don’t you understand?

It’s been four years but you can’t seem to move on

After me you couldn’t find better… you even tried to replace with

A new girl but messed up when you told her she needed to be more like Donveyea

Calling me even when she’s around you’ve got some balls lol

I see all your phone calls on the daily but I don’t have the time to pick up anymore…

& frankly I just don’t want to hear the bullshit.

You want me to believe in you but I don’t see the point

Everything your saying just sounds like game

I told you before trust isn’t just something you give out its gained

I’ve trusted in you too many times and you’ve only let me down

Burned your bridges and lost all privileges with me

I’m about to make moves and no you’re not coming

Looking towards my future leaving the past behind

& yeah you gonna be mad when I find that guy who’s know how to love me

But so what I wish you the best of luck

You say that I haven’t heard it all but I’m done listening

So say goodbye to the best thing you never had.

-Ms.Donveyea

When a Good Thing Goes Bad

I’ve loved & I’ve lost

What was I thinking?

Shouldn’t of let things go this far

But it was too late once we crossed that line

Thinking everything would be fine

And we could back to how things were

But this addiction had a hold on us

Now we’re down to our last dose

So who’s it

Going to be me or you?

Who should I care about more?

Halfcrazy… wish I could just have my friend back

Is that even possible?

Or have we reached the point of no return?

Overreacting… but you’re the reason it happen

Somehow I let my emotions get mixed up

Now I’m in my feelings

Guess that’s what I get for wishful thinking

Should of never let you into my door

Thought maybe you were the answer

But I need someone different…

& we both know it

A part of me wanted to love you but a part of me knew

The truth

With time I’ll get over the pain and try to remember why

I trust you

Right now the cut is too deep

Bleeding LOVE

I know that you’re sorry & you didn’t mean to hurt me

But you did.

I knew this was coming but I ignored it

Didn’t want things to change…

But its too late for that

Guess this is what it feels like

when a good thing goes bad.

-Ms. Donveyea

A Woman’s Worth

Do you know a woman’s worth?
 mother of the earth
more precious than rubies
but most brothas get caught in the switch of our booty’s
but see we are much more than are voluptuous curves, sweet full lips, and our almond shaped brown eyes
we are nurturers and this is true but are worth goes beyond are ability to educate and cultivate
we are priceless yes I said it priceless we are much more than anything a man can desire and nothing can compared to are virtue
we are Nubian Queens we deserve the finer things because we are worth it
a woman’s worth is the core of who she is her worth is not defined by the standards and rules of society nor her beauty or intellect
her worth is not defined by an ideal look but is measured by her ideals
But don’t get caught up in a woman’s physically features because beauty is only skin deep
A Woman’s worth holds to a higher standard and is the controller of her own destiny.
The ability to cope with the complexities of life the world does not define a woman’s worth but her strength and character does
Every woman possess the element of significance we are the true treasures of this world
It may be a man’s world but woman run it just ask Beyonce
Now I’m, not tryna diss the brothas I’m just letting it be known that
Something as delicate as a woman’s worth must be cherished and handle by a man who is willing to put his pride a side to make time to her first
A man that understands that she is a part of him because she came from him
A man who opens his heart to share his love
Any man can attempt to take on this responsibility
but it takes a real man to appreciate a woman’s worth

-Ms.Donveyea