Feel Like a Woman

Ever since you came into my life I smile more

My happiness has majorly increased

And my ability to love has been enhanced

& Ever since we got together you’ve shown me the true definition of a not only a man but a gentlemen

You take your time with me never pressure or push me to do things against my will

I appreciate your patience with me because I know at times I can be a hand full

But yet you stay by my side showering me with your sweet love

With you I feel like a woman & up until now I’ve never been able to say that

I have no doubt that you will keep your promises to me

And that I’m just a play thing but the real thing

It’s clear to me that you have plans for me and you

The way you express your feelings & love for me

Reassures me that you are in it for all the right reasons

I see you in my future being the man that will provide, protect, and profess all to keep our love alive

But really I have no clue what the future holds I just hope you have an important role in my life

I can only pray that you keep your word & be the man you claim to be

For now I’m going to continue on this journey with you so far it’s been interesting but we have so much more to explore

Ever since you took my hand you’ve proven that you can be trusted

and when things get rough you won’t let go

At first I wasn’t too sure about you but since I’ve been taken you’ve got me saying damn what a difference between a boy and man

Can’t believe I’ve been missing this all along

It’s strong so good I had to put you in a love poem

I don’t really know what you’re doing but I feel like a woman with you…. 5/2/12 <3

Ms. Donveyea

Live your Dream

Ever since I was a kid I had this dream

to paint the world

sometimes I close my eyes and see the vision

within me

then I let my creativity flow freely upon my canvas

a splash of sky blue here and a little sunshine yellow there

the beauty of the birds and butterflies as they fly high

with each stroke of my paint brush

 I begin to see the story unfold

I see a young woman filled with life

just as petty as a magnolia in May

sashaying across the world I wonder where

she’s going today

wherever she lands

I hope she sees the stepping

stones in the night’s sky

and follows her heart’s desire

believing is only the beginning

you must live your dream.

The Other Woman

Never thought I’d be the one with this kind of story to tell…

But here I am.

Yes I was young still am just not as naive

My curiosity got the best of me

But I wasn’t ready for this experiment

See he was older part of the reason I had interest

Maybe it was his smooth talk

The way he pretended to care about me

Or my selfish needs

Either way I made a mistake

It took me a while to snap out of

His compulsion

But when I finally did I couldn’t even look

At myself in the mirror I was too ashamed

How did I let this happen to me?

I thought I had this whole thing under control

And it was all just for fun

Did I not hear all the bullshit

In his excuses?

Tricked me into believing that we had a chance

My mind was so gone I was living

A double life

Sweet innocent girl by day and secretive selfish girl by night

Why would I put myself in this predicament?

I was playing with fire but thankfully I didn’t have get brunt

To learn my lesson

After I realized all the damaged I had done I starting questioning

My beliefs and what I stood for as a young woman

I wanted to help him but all I did was hurt me and give him the satisfaction of what he was doing was justified

Because he wasn’t happy

 In reality I shouldn’t have been trying to save him

I Should have let him deal with his personal problems alone

But damn I was stuck

Who do I care more about in this situation?

Me? you?… or her?

In the end I got the last word

Even made you cry I hurt you that’s what you said

Well boo hoo I don’t give a damn!

You used me, abused me, betrayed me and

Yet all you seem to care about is you

You don’t deserve someone like me

I’m too good for a piece of trash like you and the coward of man

That you are

So stop knocking on my door the young girl you used to

Doesn’t live here anymore

Go back to your other woman.

Ms.Donveyea

Thought this was forever love , guess it was just seasonal !

What happen? Something must have happened?

……………………

Okay your right something did happen I would say It’s me & not you but that would be a lie because you had a part in this too

I remember when our world collapsed all the things we built together burst into flames, when the smoked cleared raindrops on my windows is all I remember

Cold case love in the city of Cloud nine two birds lost their way…

Dark nights where did the trust, compassion, honesty, understanding, and respect go?

you called but it was too late … cause of death: over dose

Waited to the last minute, time stopped, and the candle light blow out

The next day she was nowhere to be found

GPS couldn’t even locate her heart

Walking away but your footsteps get too heavy then you fall to your knees

Begging and pleading for another chance to crack the code to her love

She left you with your favorite drug.... but better yet she gave you the disease called LOVE

My Donveyea

When you came into this world with your innocent cries from your

Pretty dark brown eyes I knew that you were something special

I gave you a gift that I placed in your heart

Knowing that when the time came

You would discover it

I watched you bloom into

A beautiful young woman full of dreams

I remember the day you spread your wings to fly

Off into the world you went to find your way

There was no turning back 

You came across a cross roads unsure of which direction to go

So you closed your eyes so you could hear

My voice guide you through this journey of life

Walking by faith and not by sight

Trust in me

Hold on the sound of my voice

I will never leave you nor forsake you

I have a plan for your life

You just have to be patient

Listen to your heart follow your dreams

And use my strength to make them reality

I know all your heart desires

But instead of giving you want you want

 I’m going to bless you with what you need

You won’t understand but you’ll thank me later

You’ve been through a lot in your life

All your struggles have shaped you into the woman

I want you to be but the molding is still in effect

You have so much to offer

Just remember to save love for yourself

I know things look messy right now

But keep the faith

You are my most treasured work of art

I loved you right from the start

You are my Donveyea

  Ms. Donveyea

The explanation

This must be what it feels like to be a boy… smh it’s crazy how the tables have turned you sound like me and I sound like you

I wasn’t trying to be a playa I just like having my options & hell

Why not? I’m a single woman a FREE woman

I’m not obligated to you

Somehow our words got twisted with our actions

Now here we are going back in forth about what’s wrong and what’s right

But wait we have no commitment…

I did what I did it is what it is

You look at me & ask why?

& I admit to my selfishness

I was thinking show no emotion just have fun

Settle down? Relationship?

Naw I’m not ready for all that

That’s something you have to be prepared for

& I’m missing all the tools

You wanted to trust me give me the benefit of the doubt

Now you see that wasn’t such a good idea

I tried to tell you from the start I have trust issues

Guess you didn’t believe me & now you see it for yourself

We crossed the line___ damn now there ain’t no way we

Can be friend’s smh

You followed your heart it lead you to me but in reality I don’t fit the part

We gave it a roll but it blew out of control

You thought I was your lucky number but I play with trick dice

Wasted your time… everything happens for a reason?

Guess this is a lesson for the both of us

I had good intentions & I never wanted things to end up this way

I left honesty out of the equation

Because I couldn’t & still can’t show you the real me…

Too many risks that I don’t have the courage to take

I did have thoughts of me & you and about what we could have been

But quickly dismissed those thoughts with my assumptions and judgments

Well after all this look at the picture …

Can’t you see that we were a beautiful mistake?

Ms. Donveyea

Ambitious Girl

Heart full hope and a mind filled with dreams

 This girl has goals a born go getter

A true beauty inside and out her drive will drive you crazy

She inspires to be a strong black business woman but she envisions

More than the dollar signs her mission is much deeper

She seeks a positive change for her community let me introduce

You to the GAME CHANGER     

Take one look and you’re hooked but there is

Much more than her physical features

Invest in her and you’ll be a rich man

But her worth will never meet a value she’s priceless

Ambitious girl you just wanna win & you’d rather chaser

Your dreams than to chase these men

She has priorities and standards but that

 Doesn’t make her stuck up or high maintenance

It just means she knows she deserves the best & she needs

A man who knows her worth

But don’t get confused she can stand on her own two feet

She just needs some company along the journey of life

Now she may be a little stubborn at times and somewhat of a perfectionist

But her flaws help define her character

A complex beauty… like the Mona Lisa

From what you perceive you think you’ve got her figured out

However until you look inside you’ll never know the treasures she posses

I done found me a keeper… I done found me a winner … I done found me a QUEEN

Man I’ am soo in love with this ambitious girl.


Ms. Donveyea

My Hearts Cry

In the middle of a storm

My life feels like it’s been hit by a hurricane

Searching for safety longing for protection

All alone its seems everyone I thought I could count

On has walked away

I just need to know that you’re hear

Please heal my wounds

Ease the pain

Crying in the midnight hour down

On my knees

Asking you to save me

Bring me out

I’m so tired of living like this God

But  in spite all the mess that I’m in

I’m still going to lift up my hands

And praise you

Trusting in you but it’s not easy

Through the tears and the pain through the heartache and rain

You seem so far away because of all the pain my life

But I know you will never leave me

You have never failed me

I was too busy trying to do things my way

Please forgive me

Teach me how to truly walk by faith and not by sight

I can’t do this by myself I surrender to you

Wondering how I will make it though this time?

But I’ll trust you

my past still controls me will this hurt ever leave?

I can only trust you no one else like you do

the devil is trying to convince me that there’s no way that I can make it out

& I’m not going to be able to get out of this situation

But my God is able

You know my pain

And I know you wouldn’t put more on me then I can bear

I’ve had my heart broken, did some things I’m ashamed of, keep making the same mistakes

But God you still kept me

I know you love me that’s why I trust you

As long as I got you Jesus I can make it

I’ll trust you!

this is my Hearts cry on today

-Ms.Donveyea

In the Middle of a Storm

What do I when my hearts not in it?

What do I do when I hit rock bottom & I can’t find the strength to get back up again?

How do I deal with separating how I feel from what’s real?

How do I let go of something I wanted so badly without feeling like a failure?

What do I say to myself to stay strong & keep my head up when I just want to break down?

What do I have to do to stop making the same mistake over and over again?

How do I prove myself when I’m surrounded by negativity?

How do I have confidence when doubt is all in my face?

What do I when insecurity is bringing me down?

What do I do when fear is holding me back?

How do I find the self motivation when I don’t believe?

How do trust that everything will be okay when things get rough & I can’t see a way out of my struggle?

Guess the only answer to all of these questions is to put my trust in God and continue to pray through the good times but even hard during the bad times…

What can you do when you can’t do nothing? Trust in the Lord….

Ms. Donveyea

Love never felt so good a gift from GOD

Like the kiss of the sun how it feels so lovely on my brown skin 

Like the soft sand of the Caribbean’s my feet love the way it feels 

Like the shinning stars in the midnight sky how beautiful they are 

You take your time there is no rush with you 

Letting me grow into myself you guide me through the valley of death 

Showing me love in every way everyday it’s something new with you 

A never ending adventure you fill me with excitement 

But when I get lost your always there to save me from myself 

It’s so amazing how your love can conquer all 

And sometimes it’s still hard to believe that you chose me 

When everybody turned their backs on me you were right there by my side 

In the middle of the night you heard my cry for help 

You comforted me and held me in your warm loving arms 

Whatever I’m going through I know that I can always depend on you 

I’m so glad you’re not like the others you are the definition of a true friend 

& sometimes the race gets too rough and I can’t see me making it to the finish line but then I 

Call out your name and you give me the strength I need to carry on 

I trust you with everything you’ve been here since the beginning 

You know me inside and out so I ask that you keep me strong so that I may fight the good 

Fight. 

Delivery me lord form all this heart ache and pain the confusion in my mind help to be what 

You desire for me to be teach me how to live life without bondage!

When a Woman’s Fed Up

Why couldn’t you have just been a man about it smh instead leading of me on to believe shit that wasn’t real?

You lied the whole time damn you deserve an Oscar

I ought to bust the windows out ya car maybe slash ya tires too

So you can feel my pain

You just played with my feelings caused me to have mixed emotions

I was real with you from the start but you just couldn’t do the same

Excuses that was all you ever gave me

Nothing but a headache but I still I wanted to give you a chance

 Damn… what was I thinking?

All this time you were talking about how woman can’t be trusted because they are sneaky & how hurt you were from past relationship

BULLSHIT! Stop tryna give me that victim shit

If you really cared for me you, you wouldn’t have done this to me

But you’re a liar so I can’t really expect much from you anyway

You could never say I didn’t try and I didn’t let you know how I felt

You were just too blind to see

Maybe I was blind too but now I see the piece of shit you really are

Making promises you know your ass would never keep smh

Then you want to apologize when honestly you don’t even mean it

Because if you did you wouldn’t have done the same shit over and over

But I’ve been done listening to you

I know the truth now no thanks to you

So save your apology this time

Just close the door when you exit my life

& don’t come back

You’ll get what you deserve

& I’ll always be the BEST thing you never had.

-Ms. Donveyea 

Marvin’s Room

Laying bed sports bra and my boyshorts on

Just got a text message saying how much you miss me…

But I’m not the same girl I once was

Guess your finally realizing that with me you had better

However it’s too late to apologize

You’ve made your bed now lay in it!

Here you go again pouring your heart out but boo hoo

It sucks for you and no I’m not sorry but you are smh

You keep saying you need me but I’m not taking you back

& you already know the reasons

It’s obvious that you still think about the times we had but

Those memories have vanished from my memory box

You keep searching for something that is no longer there

please stop it with the antics!

Now my phone is ringing I pick up and I all you

Saying is f***that n****that I

Like sooo damn bad

Stop hating because I may have found somebody worthy

You know jealousy is fetal hope you survive

I’m just saying with me you had better you

But you failed to realize that

Now you’re asking me to come over

What part of I’m over you don’t you understand?

It’s been four years but you can’t seem to move on

After me you couldn’t find better… you even tried to replace with

A new girl but messed up when you told her she needed to be more like Donveyea

Calling me even when she’s around you’ve got some balls lol

I see all your phone calls on the daily but I don’t have the time to pick up anymore…

& frankly I just don’t want to hear the bullshit.

You want me to believe in you but I don’t see the point

Everything your saying just sounds like game

I told you before trust isn’t just something you give out its gained

I’ve trusted in you too many times and you’ve only let me down

Burned your bridges and lost all privileges with me

I’m about to make moves and no you’re not coming

Looking towards my future leaving the past behind

& yeah you gonna be mad when I find that guy who’s know how to love me

But so what I wish you the best of luck

You say that I haven’t heard it all but I’m done listening

So say goodbye to the best thing you never had.

-Ms.Donveyea